Directions out of a disorder

Round Two. And let me start by saying, Satan is already pissed. I wrote an entire blog post. And it didn't save. Hence proving:

This post, along with every other post on this blog, is going to raise the hairs on Satan's back. He is not pleased when Christian's announce victory over him. And that is exactly what I am doing here. And he will most definitely come at me. Maybe in this area, probably in another area of weakness so that I am caught off guard and I stumble. So I have to stay strong in the Word. I have to read it, and live it! I can't fight this battle with my own power alone. NONE of us can. I tried for far too long, and failed for far too long. Struggling with an eating disorder for three years was enough for me. My sins no longer stay locked up inside. I am perfectly imperfect. And there's no shame here. If I live as if I'm perfect and have no struggles then I have done nothing for the Kingdom. So here goes, folks. The truth for someone out there struggling with this.

First of all I say this with love and it might be hard to hear but the truth hurts sometimes. Choosing not to eat, bingeing, cutting, etc will not change life circumstances. And unfortunately it won't make people who we desire to love us, love us any more than they do. We can't control people, we can't control our circumstances, we are only in charge of ourselves and so we have to decide what we can do to live a fulfilled life regardless of the rest. Think on that for a bit. It's just the hard truth and it does help to understand it as part of the whole picture.

Now, whether we know God personally or not, He knows us. He created us. Each and every one of us and he loves us more than we can even understand. And so whether we believe it or not he is rooting for us and his heart breaks when we are in pain, especially when that pain could be alleviated if we let Him help us through the tough stuff and let him love on us the way we need to be loved.

With all that said, first step, decide that food is not the enemy and our bodies are not the enemy. Rid of the list of good food, bad food, fatty food, etc. and let food be food.
And Get rid of the scale! Don't even step on one. Never. Ever. Spend some time just listening to your body. What you want and what you don't want. How you feel, good and bad, comfortable or uncomfortable. Just pay attention to your signals.

And find something else to focus on or do with your time when you are stressed, angry, lonely or bored. Something you enjoy and can look forward to.

Hang with friends that are positive and supportive. Let people that you trust in on this struggle, don't try to fight it alone or in secret. You don't need to be ashamed. You are a real person with real struggles and everyone around you is no different they just might have different struggles.

And for the love, give God a chance. He freakin' loves you and His heart is broken for you. He knows your parents and your friends don't get it and that sucks. But they aren't perfect either. He is though so that's cool. And I get it. And I bet someone else out there does too. I hope this post gives us all the courage to speak up. Let's break Satan's strongholds together. Peace.